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it’s been a day and a half and I still haven’t heard back from boy and unfortunately there are many reasons why this could be happening and only one of them doesn’t forebode disaster
1) he’s thinking really hard and taking everything into consideration
2) he’s going to reject me but feels bad about it and is putting it off
3) he doesn’t realize that I expect an answer in return from him
4) he didn’t take what I said seriously or brushed it off and has already forgotten about it
I don’t know how much longer I should wait before I call him or what I would even say if I did because I don’t want to dig myself a deeper hole
if he doesn’t feel the same way, I absolutely cannot lose his friendship in this sort of awkward stand off that we’re doing now
he and I have one of the greatest friendships I’ve ever had and I won’t be able to forgive myself if I’ve ruined it
I am capable of going right back to being his friend while having feelings for him (hell, I’ve done it for 8 months, I can do it until I’ve moved on)
but I don’t know if he is
what if he’s so repulsed by the thought of me being attracted to him that he won’t want to be around me anymore
what if I’ve been priding myself on my bravery for making the biggest mistake of my life
oh my god oh my god someone please just yank my brain out of my head for a while so I can have some peace ;___;
"obama is fuckin up"
"should have voted for the other guy"
everything just feels wrong
I can’t get comfortable and my brain is going a million miles an hour around the same circle of thought
sleep is the only thing that’s going to help me right now and I can’t reach it
Moving out of the apartment
Decided to take a video while flying this morning.
Best. Idea. Ever.